Waiting for them day after day

Today,when I got back from my classes,I was a bit tensed up about my next assignment.So,I thought of relaxing by watching something on the TV.As I was busy in small talk,I heard some gripping story of families,whose children went missing,but despite all efforts they remain untraceable.I was seeing their kith and kin, living in a state of perpetual mourning since their departure,sharing their sense of loss and grief.I was moved.It struck a chord in my heart immediately.I have been blessed with unduly emotional mindset since my childhood and the happenings in my life did not help me either to remain away from emotion even for one moment.I am very quick in getting closer with individuals emotionally.I am made that way.I used to be proud of my this ability and used to relish being close to human beings.But as time passed, age caught up with me and gradually I  was to witness another facet of this phenomenon.With time,I was losing people,whom I loved with so much intensity and depth.The sense of loss was unimaginable and the pain inexplicable yet unbearable.Time and again,person after person,I used to suffer silently.I still remember vividly the death of my young class-teacher in a street burglary,passing of my grand mother,sudden departure of my eldest uncle,loss of Ranu's mom (friend's mom),demise of my own mother,departure of friend,friends parents....countless of them.I was very deeply attached to each of them and thus felt an acute sense of loss for each of them.But as I was watching the documentary-two things stood distinctly among other things.One,at least in the cases of death-natural or unnatural,there was a sense of finality or closure about the incident.It may have been painful ,each time I lost my near and dear one,but there was no uncertainty or ambiguity about the happenings in my mind.However,for the people,who got separated from their near and dear ones in incidents other than deaths,the pain and loss is even greater.There is no finality or conclusive closure of the episode of their sufferings.Just come to think of it.Secondly,we tend to miss all those,who have been separated from us on account of anything death or other-wise,but when they are around,why don't we communicate the same kind of commitment and emotion thru our interaction and actions.Since my mothers departure,I could understand that need and value of expression of our feelings for our loved ones.For the last couple of days,I was working upon a plan to bring my family members closer thru various constructive interactions,however the reflections based on above thoughts propelled to act faster and with determination,before I lose another one.Pray for me as I dream of something unthinkable.I dream of creating a society based upon love,empathy,emotion and sacrifice.Charity,as they say,begins at home and so I want to begin with my own family members.I need help from each of you and I seek your good wishes too.I wait for that welcome moment of my dream achievement day after day............